The Masturbation Interviews – brought to you by LDW Group

(This interview was conducted via email.)

Mistress Courtney: What name shall I use for you?  (Keep in mind, this is anonymous, but it will be published.)

Camilla: Camilla

Mistress Courtney: Tell me a bit about yourself.  Whatever you would care to share.  Basic information and background stuff…Your age, general location, marital status, whatever you wish to share…

Camilla: I was born, brought up and currently live in the London area (England) but my parents were both from northwest India. I’m 47 years old, married with kids and am reasonably well off, not having to worry too much about money and being able to enjoy a nice standard of living. I’m not happy with my body and wish I was taller than my 5’2″ and a lot lighter! Things I do like though are my face which I have always been told is very pretty, my boobs which are even now really good, and my clitoris because its so good to me!

Mistress Courtney: So, when did you first discover that you could pleasure yourself sexually?

Camilla: I personally can’t remember discovering masturbation, its something that has been part of my life for as long as I can remember, though obviously it had no sexual associations until I was in my teens. I can remember being caught doing it in my room in a house we left when I was 4 so some time before that??

Mistress Courtney: Do you recall any particular details from that first time?

Camilla: Well as I said I don’t remember the actual first time but my earliest memories involved a technique I stuck with through to puberty so I’d guess its how I first got started. I used to lie on my front under the bedcovers, draw my knees up and to the sides so I was half kneeling and half on my front, then put my teddybear between my legs and press down on it and rock my hips until it felt nice.

Mistress Courtney: Did you have any preconceived notions about masturbation from your family, religious teachings, sexual education classes, or other kids?  If so, what were they?

Camilla: I don’t think I heard the word MASTURBATION until I was at leat 11 and at my secondary school. When I was caught at home it was never given a name just that I shouldn’t do that as it was wrong/dirty/not what nice girls did etc. My parents were ordinary people without strong religious or cultural issues against sex but I guess seeing their little daughter at herself was hard for them.

At school nobody, including me, ever admitted to masturbating. The word was only ever used in insults like the infamous insult one girl got suspended for, “With a face like that you better learn to masturbate”.

Sex education was at 13 and done by our biology teacher, a lady in her, I’d guess, 40′s who’s real name I just can’t remember but we called her Babs behind her back though I never knew why!! Anyway I remember the great day we were given the one and only sex education talk which was very to the point and biological function based, making no mention of desires, pleasures or the like. It was so silly as everyone in the room probably knew a lot more about the subject than was ever going to be said! Babs had explained all the male parts and their functions from an overhead projector image slide and was doing the female parts when a boy that was always trouble asked what the bits she had not mentioned were for (outer genitalia). She said something like, “for a lady’s pleasure’ and quickly moved on. I remember thinking ‘too right they are’. I sort of wonder though if I had not known about lust and orgasms what the whole lesson would have ment to me? A boy gets an erection for no known reason and just decides to put it in a female’s vagina and let semen come out then the couple part and a baby develops…

Mistress Courtney: So, once you discovered how good it felt to masturbate, how often did you find yourself doing it back then?

Camilla: I remember it always being part of my going to bed routine like brushing my teeth and when I was older having a read so I’d say that I probably did it at least 9 nights in 10 right through childhood. I also did it when I fancied in the morning at weekends when I could lounge in bed a bit and also at whatever time I felt bored and had the privacy such as when at home alone.

Mistress Courtney: So, have you ever been caught masturbating?

Camilla: Yes, lots actually, especially as a child, but most of the time only I knew what was happening as the split second warning of a door opening was usually enough for me to dismount and look innocent.

Mistress Courtney: Tell me about the most memorable time you were caught.

Camilla: I’m going to cheat and tell about a few instances as of all the questions you ask this is the most interesting:

The first time I can remember being caught was when I was, as  said above, 4. I somehow remember this more as if I had seen it than been involved but I do have this feeling of horror/guilt/panic with the memory. That is, I guess, just how old the memory is. Anyway I had been thrusting on my teddy on my bed and my mother walked in and caught me. I can’t remember exactly what was said but I was shouted at and felt ashamed. Not nice!

I remember being caught by my sister who is 6 years older than me. I must have been about 8 at the time. Unlike my mother (who caught me several times, each with the same reaction) my sister just sat on the bed and started talking about it. She asked about my experiences and told me about hers though she had only found out much later than I had. She did say one useful thing though and that was to wear panties when playing to stop the bear smelling!

I sort of got caught at work once. I was in the cubicle in the toilets having a quick rub having gotten horny during a long boring meeting. The toilets I was in was off the Directors’ corridor and as none of our directors were women they were seldom used and so I expected, as I had on many occasions, to be able to have privacy. Anyway things were going well and it was feeling fantastic and I was expecting to cum any second when the outter door opened and someone came in. I couldn’t stop and though I held myself in and tried not to gasp or moan I must have made some sort of sound that gave it away.as I heard the woman (I never found out who it was) giggle and leave quickly. I stayed in the toilets for about half an hour to make sure nobody would be watching outside before making my escape.

I remember being caught by my own daughter when she could only have been about 2.5 years old and still fond of her afternoon naps. Anyway I used to take the opportunity to relax when she was in her cot for an hour and would either watch TV if there was anything on, read or occasionally if in the mood, masturbate. Well With her safely asleep this one day I decided to masturbate downstairs in the lounge. I had dropped my slacks and panties round my ankles and was sitting on the reclining armchair just getting going, knees apart and right hand winding away on my sex when my daughter walked in. She had never climed out of her cot before and chose just the wrong time to learn the skill. She had no idea what I was doing so I told her I had an itchy midge bite that I had to scratch. She was always getting bitten so knew what I meant and the incident never got mentioned again. Lucky she wasn’t a couple of years older at the time as she could well have been able to remember the thing now if she had been.

Mistress Courtney: Has anyone ever watched you stroke before? (intentionally)

Camilla: Yes, I like my hubby to watch me play and a couple of sexual partners have over the years. I usually masturbate before I have sex as that way I never get left out when the man climaxes and wants to go to sleep!

Mistress Courtney: Tell me about the most memorable time someone watched you intentionally.

Camilla: I was intrigued by the Sybian machine but as it was American I never thought I would see one let alone try one. Then I found out that there was an English copy called the VX1 out (now gone bust) and through Yahoo I found a couple near me in West London that were offering rented time on the thing. To cut a long story short I arranged to go see them for a session but when I got there only the husband was around. He seemed OK so I stayed and waited for the wife. Then it became apparent she was not coming so I got to ride the VX1 and play with some Hitach Wand toys that were better. The guy in the flat had asked to watch me and at first I was uncomfortable about letting him but when I stopped for a break after 20 minutes I did invite him in for my second half. He didn’t try and touch me and kept his distance and kept quiet but just knowing there were strangers eyes on my sex while I buzzed myself made things ultra naughty and made the orgasms even better.

Mistress Courtney: Have you ever used any unique techniques for stroking? (Any special gadgets or homemade inventions?)

Camilla: When I was 12 or so I worked out where I needed touching precisely to have an a nice feeling rather than having the whole area pressed and rubbed as had been the case with the teddy method – I zeroed in on my clitoris! Anyway looking for a less energetic, more stealthy way to do the deed I did work out and try a few odd things/methods avoiding the obvious one of using my fingers completely. None of these was that successful and that is why I dropped them and moved on but it’s funny to think back what my childish, none technical mind came up with as stimulators. Here are a few:

I used to take an empty Fairy Liquid (dish washing detergent) bottle into the bath and use it to squirt water jets onto my clitoris.

I had spiral edged decorative candle that I tried along my sex. It was nice and knobbly but it did not slide too well and the dragging on my sensitive parts was uncomfortable. I never dreampt of inserting it though!

I used the edge of the bath quite a lot at one time. I used to just press down on its smooth hard surface and slide a little.

Having found that pulling the gusset of my panties tight so it dug into my vulva was nice I did sew some buttons into the inside of a pair of panties to experiment. It wasn’t any good and I tended to nip my bits between buttons rather a lot.

Mistress Courtney: Have you ever used anything out of the ordinary for lubricant?

Camilla: For masturbation no as I only masturbate when in the mood and when in the mood I get wet quickly. For sex though where I sometimes have or want to accommodate advances from the hubby when I’m not in the mood I do use lubes which I buy commercially. On the odd occasions when he has wanted, I haven’t and we were out of lube I have used hand cream.

Mistress Courtney: Do you have any funny, embarrassing, exciting or notable masturbation stories?  (That you haven’t already shared?)

Camilla: It’s a bit of a post script to the4 VX1 story above. The guy in the flat unknown to me videoed my time with the Hitachi Wands and VX1, only telling me about it months later by email at a time I was thinking about having another visit. I was shocked, terrorfied and very aroused by this. He did at one point post a clip for the video on Xhamster but I reported the incident and had the video taken down.

Mistress Courtney: Do you have anything else that you would like to add about your masturbation experiences before we close?

Camilla: You didn’t ask about me catching or watching others. I have many times. Perhaps you could add a question about this subject?

Mistress Courtney: I will consider that!  Thank you so much!

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